Monnggo, silahkan........hehehe
jangan lupa di ya.....jangan cuma cengengesan ajah kaleee...Plizzzz.....
Minggu, 09 Agustus 2020
Cek...ayo di ceek.....
MAu liAt apa apa aja yang ada disini......????
Monnggo, silahkan........hehehe
jangan lupa di ya.....jangan cuma cengengesan ajah kaleee...Plizzzz.....
GooD lUck and MAuliateh.....
Monnggo, silahkan........hehehe
jangan lupa di ya.....jangan cuma cengengesan ajah kaleee...Plizzzz.....
Senin, 23 Desember 2013
corat coret
salahkah aku menyesali diri ketika aq ada untuk mereka namun mereka tidak ada buat ku
ketika ku membuka tangan buat mereka namun mereka menutup tangan untukku
ketika ku bertahan berdiri untuk mereka namun tidak untukku
sepertinya ada yang salah denganku
bagaimana aku bisa menjadi sebuah suluh yang sinarnya buat orang lain
yahh,buat mereka,dia,bukan aq,atau kami
ahhhhhh....kutarik nafasq dalam dalam, berharap bisa menjadi sebuah doa pelipulara jika memang sudah saatnya begitu,ya sudahlah
kurasakan sudah perih hidup tak berwarna, ketika ku hidup hanya dengan sandiwara
menghabiskan skenario sampai tamat hingga suatu saat aku bisa bertindak lepas
menutup mata,menarik nafas,dan berdiri menegakkan badan dan merentangkan tangan
happy mom day
as my heart call me to stay,survive but today i will be honest that actually i am wrong... at the time i thought that i was the stronger bear all the case and hoped some day i'll be a winner,and what the result is someting that i've never think before,i am the loser with every mad that i have.... how dare am i...
honestly i am the worse.....bad and so terible...i was crying at the bathroom....held my breath away, but i couldn't...i miss her so much,i thougth i could forgot her but i never....
mom, happy mother day...i wish i can hold you and hold you tightly.....can you fell my bliss near you...i wish we can be together,smile and keep talking and holding until the time end......miss u much......
Jumat, 29 November 2013
Terimakasih
Terima kasih buat hari esok ketika ku lelah menghabiskan hari ini, menghitung hari yang sia sia demi menanti sesuatu yang belum ku yakini...
terima kasih buat tanah untuk berdiam ketika ku lelah untuk berlari, memberi ruang untuk menarik sisa nafas untuk kembali bertarung berdiri ...
terima kasih buat cahaya ketika aku tersesat dalam gelap, menghapus garis kelam yang terukir di ruang hati...
terima kasih buat pagi ketika aku sembunyi dalam malam, mengikis luka yang terhimpit dalam alunan sunyi ...
terima kasih untuk tawa ketika ku lelah untuk air mata, mengubah luka menjadi cahaya...
terima kasih buat waktu ketika aku terdiam menunggu, mengingatkan ku atas panjang jalan yang masih harus ku tempuh...
terima kasih buat semua yang ada...
terima kasih buat dunia...
terima kasih buat sang Pencipta....untuk tetap bersyukur buat semua....
with love and Hug... Tsea....
Senin, 25 November 2013
great...
16112013
happy birthday mom... actually i didn't forget,but it was hard to say the greetings at the time ...until now i can move on and keep on this board typing this blog... luv u...
Rabu, 23 Oktober 2013
sk sthang
pa pos roham amang...
dang tarbalos dope burjumi salelengon...
holan na manusai do borumon di lakka ngoluna...
aha pe hu ulahonma pasonang roham...
dang tarbaehen manang aha amang, palambas ma roham amang...marnida hami gellengmon...
unang mangapian ho amang marnida jolma naasing...
tangiangkon gomos hami anakmon...anggiat dapot parsarian na denggan tu joloan ari...
holan tangiang hu nama amang pasombu sihol sian nadao....
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Jumat, 11 Oktober 2013
tipis....
pargogoi au Tuhan di dalan ngolungku na lilu on.....
lehon hagogoon mangadopi sude rura hangoluan on...
asa unang mandele jala gale au di haporseaonku on....
Selasa, 17 September 2013
...
The day we took our first picture....
touching stories....when u feel love is so boring....cause it has lost the simply meaning of love....
//read it :
Minggu, 01 September 2013
Heppi bestdai tu mi....
ahhhh...finally i've got my 26 number....
perhaps dhis is my laky namber....
whuauauaqqqq.....am ah getting older....
preis de Lord for evriting....
thenks God gif me canse tru this yier ehed....
espesielly kentung bisaid me....
yu ar jas laik mai mami....
de best por yu tu.....
Senin, 19 Agustus 2013
sisi lain nya:
kutipan dari sobatq disana...;
aq slalu berpaling setiap kali melihat mereka yang bahagia...
melempar cahaya indah nan berwarna ke sekitar...
seakan dunia memang miliknya....ya,memang milik mereka...lirihku halus,
menoleh jauh tanpa melirik mereka yang akhirnya berhasil menapakkan kaki ke garis baru hidupnya,
dengan genngam tangan yang seakan tak bisa terlepaskan oleh badai sekalipun....ya,indahnya desahku sekejap...
Aq,seakan haus ditepi mata air...rindu sesuatu yang ada di ujung hati...
kasih yang seakan telah pudar hilang terkikis oleh hembusan angin...
ya,mereka bilang hidupku bagai seorang bidadari, bak lukisan sempurna siap di saji...ahhh,mereka tak tau betapa sebenarnya perih....
duri itu seakan tak berhenti menyakitiku,tak hilang dan selalu membekas,
kepahitan itu selalu datang silih berganti,entahlah...aq terlalu pesimis menjalaninya....
menatap ke atas,salh apa gerangan menimpa aku,kau, dia dan mereka....
rindu akan bayangan putih yang membuatq seperti ini,kenapa melepaskanku ketika aq masih dini?
Terlalu...itu pantas kuucapkan mewakili asaku ini semua...heran dengan rasa ini, hambar....seakan akan memang tak seharusnya berjalan seperti ini...
seandainya dewa itu memberi penghapus kehidupannya bagiku,akan ku hapus segera jalan cerita itu dan menrubahnya seketika....
tapi....akan lebur juga oleh air hujan itu...
ya..hujan...
lebih tepatnya layak disandingkan disampingku,..
mendung seperti hariku,...
kupilih berdiam menunggu redanya yah...menikmati bulir jatuhnya dengan permainan rasa dab asa ku...
sepertinya jalan itu memang tak bertepi....
terbawa arus menggiring entah ke ujung mana....
kuraih setiap sisi mimpi itu,mengait dengan yang lain..
..
berusaha menutup setiap celah luka yang ada...lebih tepatnya,menambal perih itu...
yah...seperti itulah...lirihku ragu...
mencari arah bagaimana aq harus bertahan...
di sisa puing asaq, jika aq bisa, ku akhiri sudah cerita ini dan melepas sisa lembaran sampai akhir tulisan itu...
tapi aku tersungkur....terima kasih untukNya Sang Pencipta...
menjadikan aq kuat mendaki terjal liku jalan,
menatap sekeliling,
mengucap syukur di hati dan mengukir janji di hati...
kan ku jaga sampai akhir.....
aq tak begitu paham tapi akan ku kenang,,,thnks my dearest guy...
Minggu, 28 Juli 2013
Question tag???
He asked me to wait...i'm waiting....
but i'm not patient yet..
i left Him behind me...looking for my own way...
then i lost all, didn't know where to go....
Forgot everything and regret all...
it's all about faith, wait and trust....trouble has neglect me....fine....make your own life and enjoy it...
but remember He always waiting until you realize that He and the only your answer.....
Kamis, 13 Juni 2013
hagogoonQ.. :)
Ale Tuhan dang adong na onding sian parnidaan dohot sian parbinotoanMu,
paingot hami ganup tingki asa mabiar hami mangulahon dosa,
pargogoi ma hami mangulahon na denggan, ai angka i do lomo ni roham, iring iringi hami ganup ari asa sahat hami hagagak ni pangkirimon Mu i.
Sai suarahohon ma tu roha nami ale Tuhan pangantusion na bagas taringot tu angka patikmi.
Hu puji hami Ho Tuhan ala ni hasangapon dohot hamulion Mi, di tanda Ho do hami sude, di dodoi hodo sahat rodi rohanami angka na umbagas i.
Ajarima hami paturehon ngolunami.
Mauliate ma di asi ni roham na balgai ale Tuhan na sai paingot ingot angka na niasian mi, ndang di halomohon ho mago manang ise sian adopanMi.
Mauliate ma Tuhan ala naung dapotan pangantusion na imbaru hami taringot tu hata nang dohot pangulami.
Marpamuati ma roham molo sai adong dope sian pangkataion nami dohot pangulaon nami naso hombar tu lomo ni roham, pargogoi ma hami paturehon sandok ngolu nami asa gabe hamauliateon dohot puji puji an di goarMu...
Rabu, 29 Mei 2013
yes....You are the only God...
Kau menunjukkan siapa diriMu....
ketika ku jujur padaMu...
ketika ku ragu akan kuasaMu...
maaf Tuhan....
tapi lebih baik ku jujur dengan kekecewaanku...
daripada bersembunyi di balik doa doa palsuku...
Sabtu, 25 Mei 2013
Jumat, 24 Mei 2013
love is.... [cat ^-.-^ version :-) ]
"it's hard to love other when you can't share yours for them. Happiness and Sadness are two components in our lifes that must be walk together, sometimes you felt happy sometimes felt sad,proud and dissapoint,honor and mad...it's life...unpredictable if you push on 'something' but it will incredible if you enjoy every minute of it....
'walk together through roughness,lift up each other when one fall down and take care each other....'
"but it will be happy ending if there is a COMMiTMEnT on hand of both of you,when u were far away without him/her...and until that time, you will see...how love can survive through the trials and turbulence.....and its not the end of your wish...but its just a beginning all of your life journey...."
with hug...
Kamis, 23 Mei 2013
I'm so tired....
As children bring their broken toys, with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God,
because he is my friend.
But then instead of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help,
with ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back again
and cried, “How can you be so slow?'
You never did let go.
Dear God,
I’m so tired of trying to make my life in to something worthwhile. I keep telling myself that I make a difference or that I have a purpose. It seems like it’s all a fucking joke. I’m just fooling myself. Every day that I wake up I feel disappointed that I realize I have to live through another bastardizing day. My sanity is slipping away from me and honestly I just wish all this crap would end.
I guess I’m writing this letter to you just about this. It’s not even a call for help, I’m just gradually spiraling downward and out of control. All I wish…all I want, is for you to finally give me a bottom and just end this please. . I lay in bed at night and cry myself to sleep. Half the time I don’t even understand why. It’s like my soul and mind are gradually being ripped apart.
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This letter is . I write only because…I guess I can. How many times I’ve called out your name and had nothing in response. How many times have I looked for glimmer of hope only . I see people, and they don’t care. No one even looks me in the eyes anymore.
I remember being on my knees one day, tears streaming down my face. I humbled myself before God. I was so tired and fragile. I feared that I no longer had the strength to push on. I can remember crying and telling God that I was sorry for my mistakes, for letting him down and most of all for being upset with the one person who has carried me my entire life, . I prayed to God that day and said “God, I am so tired. I do not think that I can do this anymore. Please God, tell me what you want me to do? Help me God, please!”
Suddenly, there was such a peace surrounding me, a warmth that radiated through me. And then I heard him. He told me to surrender to him, to give him it all. To lay it at his feet. Most of all I can remember him telling me to be still, know that he is God, listen and wait. It was amazing at how different I felt at that very moment. Such a weight had been lifted from my life. Slowly, things began to brighten. I was praising God for saving me once again. The sudden changes in my life were amazing. I had gained my strength back, only this time I became not only a stronger, more faithful Christian, I became the strong individual that God had intended for my life.
My life started to get easier. The tears dried up and I was facing things in my life. Facing them with confidence and a strength that I never thought that I had. I started to put my life back together again.
God is merciful and good. He knows us inside and out. And his plan for us is the ultimate plan for anyone’s life. So, I started to get comfortable again. For my peace, my children, Scott, for my life. Even though I was in God’s word, trying to walk in the paths that he was leading me I began to get back in that “comfort zone”. And before long, my life started to shatter once again. My health was failing, my job was suffering because of my health and the problems of the past began to come back to haunt me once again.
And once again I found myself asking God why. “What am I doing wrong God that I am once again faced with a fear that I can’t understand?”
I found myself re-evaluating myself in wonder as to where my weaknesses lay. And the answers were quite clear.
You see, when we face darkness in our lives we sometimes forget that there is a comfort and a peace that is there waiting for us if only we open our hearts to receive it. Facing life’s trials and tribulations is a mysterious component of our lives that only God understands.
I reflect on a passage from 1 Peter when he speaks to a group of Christians who are suffering their faith. Peter reminds them how much Jesus suffered. Jesus suffered for us that we might have a life of faith and peace. In 1 Peter he tells us that through our faith we are shielded by God’s power until Jesus returns again. He tells us that while we rejoice in this we may have to suffer in all kinds of trials. He tells in 1 Peter 7 “These (sufferings) have come so that your (our) faith - of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” Jesus Christ suffered and died for us so that his glories would follow.
We need to trust God. He is not going to tell us anything except for at his appointed time. You might ask when? There is a price to pay for every privilege. Life will not always be fun. One cannot go from dating to marriage without struggle. We cannot go from our old ways to a reborn Christian without struggle.
We are to enjoy the season that we are in. Enjoy the journey. When we worry, we cannot enjoy life. Allow God to take care of you. Trust in him and believe in him for all things.
John 7 tells us that we all might think that the timing is always right, but Jesus told those at the feast of the tabernacle that “The right time for me has not yet come, for you anytime is right.” If we take a look at our lives, our expectations of everyday Jesus was right.
Through trial and tribulation we are faced with the challenges that God has set before us. I know that I am guilty of planning first then praying afterwards. This is not God’s plan for us. He wants us to pray first and then plan. To learn to be sensitive to grace. By being sensitive to grace, laying it in the Lord’s hand and then allowing him to do the work, we are filled with peace and enjoyment. Let’s face it, outside of grace, we are miserable. Am I right? It does not work when God is not in it. It ultimately has to be in God’s timing, not ours. In times of trial and tribulation we must remember that God will not be late. He may never be early, but he will not be late. By trusting in him we find that God’s timing is always on time.
When you face your trials in life take a look at those around you. The key to peace about one’s suffering is to put your problems into perspective. Look at the problems that you have, look at those around you and you might just find that you are thankful for the blessings that you have.
So, my friends I leave you with these thoughts to ponder on..... Is it not better to cooperate with God and wait for him. Is he not waiting on us? Should we not remain stable, not get frustrated thus distracting us from Jesus? We should stay focused. Do we not tend to spend our lives running around putting out Satan’s fires? We need to attend to God’s business and he will then attend to ours. I feel that until we can learn to be happy where we are at, we cannot and will not get to the next place that God wants us to be. We need to have a better attitude and learn how to deal with the difficult things that God gives us. If we learn to have the victory during trials and tribulations we can be victorious in God’s almighty grace. Now isn’t that something to give us a hope. A hope of the unknown? A hope that no matter how hard life is at times, God is still right there beside us waiting on us to give it to him.
So often people say to me “How can your faith be so strong with all that you have gone through and continue to go through?” My friends, I tell you that no matter how much it hurts and how many times I ask the question why, my faith carries me through. I don’t like what I have to face in life at times, but I do know that if I remain faithful, God will bless me in the end. He finds a way to bring back my focus on what his plan is for me. He wants me to be victorious in him and in carrying my faith and love and belief for him, I ultimately am victorious. I am becoming the righteous woman that he has set out for me to be.
As I face my uncertainty and fears in life I know that I can face them with the understanding that if I just allow God to take it from me, to trust in him that I can face anything.
I leave you with my love and with the poem above that my dear friend gave to me last year in one of the worst trials that I ever had to face. It is a poem that I will read every day for the remainder of my life here on this earth. The words are words that bring me to the peace that God wants for my life. Remember to be still my friends and know that he is God. And that and will always be there just waiting..... Never ever forget to wake each day thanking God for the blessings that he bestows upon your life You might just find your day a little more peaceful!
Minggu, 19 Mei 2013
With kidz, Happy is a must....
Rabu, 24 April 2013
Selasa, 19 Februari 2013
like this song....
,KISS FRom Rose...
There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
,Try...
Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why
Where there is desireThere is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But Just because it burns
Does not mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Eh, eh, eh
Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right
Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But Just because it burns
Does not mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by
Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But Just because it burns
Does not mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
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